Monthly Archives: April 2010

Motivation & Inspiration

The Power to Change

Freedom…

It’s crazy when you open yourself up, at the ripe old age of 34 (almost 35, but let’s save that for a later, more wine induced blog entry!) to learning new things about yourself, what you will find. Also crazy to think that as an “official adult” you can completely change yourself! I mean really, people say that all the time, but who honestly believes them? I know I didn’t.

But it’s sooooo true. People really can change. I’m living proof.

I used to be miserable, now I’m happy and content.

I used to dwell on all the crap that was stinking in my life, now I’m pleasantly surprised how much life blows my mind in a great way, everyday.

I used to be overweight, now…well now at least I’m a healthy weight and regardless am very happy with my appearance and body image. I’m training to run a marathon, a goal I’ve had for years, but would never actually tell anyone, because they would take one look at me and burst out laughing! Heck I would burst out laughing! But I’m Doing it!

I used to be financially destitute and now I’m on a plan that will change that part of mine and my children’s lives forever.

I used to have bright ideas, but never follow through with them. I would always envy people who could make their goals a reality, I never dreamed I could. I had tried countless times. Nothing EVER stuck! I just apparently came to the conclusion that I couldn’t. That I sucked. And you know what? I WAAAY did. I sucked! I started things I couldn’t finish. I was excited about a plan or idea or goal for all of five minutes, then that would die off and when work became required I talked myself out of it.

Or did I?

I realized today, that maybe…maybe I am better alone. When I’m with someone (well my ex-husband specifically) I let his negative energy corrupt what I thought I was capable of. If I thought the goal would get a laughable reaction from him, I would either push the goal aside, or agree with his assessment that I shouldn’t bother because clearly my track record proved I couldn’t accomplish much.

So I stopped speaking my ideas.
I stopped having ideas.
I stopped dreaming.

Being alone this last year, I haven’t had that negative energy around me. Most days I have no one to bounce ideas off of at all. Facebook is my friends and family. Most people don’t have time to be “real life” friends and family anymore…so I found if I put it out there, it was out there! And I became accountable to more than just myself. It made me say those goals out loud. It made me hear them, believe them, go after them. That network gave me encouragement and looking back over the past year, I’ve been able to verbalize and do things I literally NEVER dared to dream possible.
Words and thoughts are powerful things.

Words are powerful.
Thoughts are powerful.
Belief is powerful.
Faith is powerful.

It’s never too late to create the life you want. I am living proof of this. Every day I remind myself of where I was a year and a half ago and how grateful I am to be where I am now.

I live in gratitude.

And am happy to be, an ever better… me.

*Written by Sarah Centrella

Parenting

I’m Proud Of You

I’m proud of you.
I see your efforts, I see your struggles and I’m proud of you.

Baby girl…

I watch you stand when your legs are weak.
I watch you play, under a pile of giggling monkeys. I hear them scream your name at the site of you. I see your eyes light up, at the site of them.
I’m proud of you.
I see you work, strive to make your mark. Hustle to provide for your babies and give them, and you the life only seen in day-dreams.
I see you DO it.

I’m proud of you.
I see you take on mountains, expectations that you didn’t dare give yourself. I see you meet them. I see you do what you believed impossible.
I see you fight.
I see you laugh.
I see your smile.
I see your heart is good, your outlook untainted by your past.
I see you move on. Recreate a life. Be.
I see you, and I’m proud of you.

I don’t know in life why it is that those simple 4 words are so hard for most people to say…but I think we go through life always wanting to hear them from someone. I try to say them and mean them often, to my friends and family…I realized today when a friend said them to me, how they are words I almost never hear, but must really need to. So is it cheating if based on this kind friends words, I remind myself??

 

Written by: Sarah Centrella

 

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