It’s crazy when you open yourself up, at the ripe old age of 34 (almost 35, but let’s save that for a later, more wine induced blog entry!) to learning new things about yourself, what you will find. Also crazy to think that as an “official adult” you can completely change yourself! I mean really, people say that all the time, but who honestly believes them? I know I didn’t.
But it’s sooooo true. People really can change. I’m living proof.
I used to dwell on all the crap that was stinking in my life, now I’m pleasantly surprised how much life blows my mind in a great way, everyday.
I used to be overweight, now…well now at least I’m a healthy weight and regardless am very happy with my appearance and body image. I’m training to run a marathon, a goal I’ve had for years, but would never actually tell anyone, because they would take one look at me and burst out laughing! Heck I would burst out laughing! But I’m Doing it!
I used to be financially destitute and now I’m on a plan that will change that part of mine and my children’s lives forever.
I used to have bright ideas, but never follow through with them. I would always envy people who could make their goals a reality, I never dreamed I could. I had tried countless times. Nothing EVER stuck! I just apparently came to the conclusion that I couldn’t. That I sucked. And you know what? I WAAAY did. I sucked! I started things I couldn’t finish. I was excited about a plan or idea or goal for all of five minutes, then that would die off and when work became required I talked myself out of it.
Or did I?
I realized today, that maybe…maybe I am better alone. When I’m with someone (well my ex-husband specifically) I let his negative energy corrupt what I thought I was capable of. If I thought the goal would get a laughable reaction from him, I would either push the goal aside, or agree with his assessment that I shouldn’t bother because clearly my track record proved I couldn’t accomplish much.
So I stopped speaking my ideas.
I stopped having ideas.
I stopped dreaming.
Being alone this last year, I haven’t had that negative energy around me. Most days I have no one to bounce ideas off of at all. Facebook is my friends and family. Most people don’t have time to be “real life” friends and family anymore…so I found if I put it out there, it was out there! And I became accountable to more than just myself. It made me say those goals out loud. It made me hear them, believe them, go after them. That network gave me encouragement and looking back over the past year, I’ve been able to verbalize and do things I literally NEVER dared to dream possible.
Words and thoughts are powerful things.
Words are powerful.
Thoughts are powerful.
Belief is powerful.
Faith is powerful.
It’s never too late to create the life you want. I am living proof of this. Every day I remind myself of where I was a year and a half ago and how grateful I am to be where I am now.
I live in gratitude.
And am happy to be, an ever better… me.
*Written by Sarah Centrella