Earthquake Moment -Definition

My Law of Attraction Definitions: “Earthquake Moment”

This is the time in your life when it feels like EVERYTHING is falling apart. Where it goes from bad to worse. Where you think “how can this be happening to me!! I’m a good person! I’ve been being positive! WTF??”
That moment.

I think of it this way…
You are going about your life, putting it together like a puzzle. You think your on the right path, working, taking care of your family, whatever the case may be. But you sent a wish out into the world at some point, you have a dream. It’s the big dream. You’ve tried very hard to believe that it’s on it’s way and even though your not supposed to worry about the HOW, you have been formulating a plan. Important note here; plans are NOT a bad thing in my book because they encourage the Hustle factor which I believe strongly in, however you must know that your plan is peanuts compared to THE plan, so be open to it showing up how and when it wants to regardless of your plan.

But one day you wake up and it’s all just come crashing down. You feel like you’ve lost it all, all your hard work, all your momentum, your hope everything. Gone.
But now is when you MUST BELIEVE.

This is your Earthquake.
It’s like a house; it’s functional, it’s yours, your happy to have it. Then one day the earth under it shifts, and it all falls down, like Humptdy-dumpty. Your devastated at first. Then, when your crying on your broken stoop where a house used to stand, a stranger comes up and says “it’s your lucky day! I’m building dream homes on these old cracked foundations, would you like yours?” And you realize that you couldn’t of built your dream home (which was your BIG Picture Wish) on this spot with the old house still standing.
That is the Law of Attraction at work.

 

 

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The Yellow Brick Road: My Dream Come True

Yellow Brick Road…

I LOVE having breakthroughs and epiphanies. As a general rule I have been trying to teach myself to live in awareness and be mindful of them, so as it turns out I tend to have them with regularity as of late.

The best ones are the kind that makes the little “ding” sound when the light goes on in your head, and you get chills instantly down the back of your spine. The ones you have to take a few minutes to follow the yellow brick road past the freaky, scary forest to find the wizard and wisdom at the end of the rainbow. Those are the Hustle.Believe.Receive. ones that give me goose bumps, and leave one thought in my head: “No Eff-ing way!!” I may of mentioned this a time or two but…everything happens for a reason.

This past week I had one of those realizations, a BIG one! It hit me like a hungry sumo-wrestler. I was driving, milling over in my mind the lunch meeting I had just come out of. It was with the Director of the Oregon Chapter of The American Red Cross.  He had called me to see if I would be interested in being the Motivational Speaker for their annual state staff retreat. This was the first moment I get chills.
This is my dream to motivate and move people on a grand scale, one where we can get “regular” people like you and me to have the “aha” moment. Where lives will be changed and hope will be given where it was absent before. That has been my dream and vision for a long time. This is the next step in that plan, one I began planning over a year ago, back when I was traveling the country as a software VP.
 
So this is the fun part. This is the yellow brick road…travel with me and we will unwind this one together and you will see, that for the last almost 3 years this is how my life has been. These type of moments and realizations and bodily chills, and enormous smiles that turn to screams and happy tears…this is what it feels like to get what you’ve been envisioning and dreaming about.
 
Timeline of events leading to said chills:
 
Love this Microphone…
  1. One year ago I updated my Future Board to include a picture of a microphone looking over a crowd, next to it a picture of a women typing on her laptop, and next to that a screen shot of my blogs title. These were all to remind me of those experiences/dreams (1. To share my story through motivational speaking 2. To keep writing 3. To get my blog out there). Mind you my blog was still privet at this time and had in 18 months only ever had about 300 reads/views total to date. I held a very public role in my company and was afraid that if I went public with it, it would somehow jeopardize my position.
  2. In March of this year (2011) my position at the software company was eliminated due to the line I oversaw being cut. After careful consideration I decided to take a position outside the company to further my public speaking and thought leadership career (though still specific to the industry I was in). (Read SWIM which is the post from that time)
  3. In April and May I was jetting across the country, flying first class, staying at the Ritz, ect. in the new position. I LOVED it and was great at my job. But regardless suddenly, and for no known reason I was let go after only 5 weeks. I have a family of four to support and had just barley started getting settled into the position, I was devastated. Still I knew there must be a hidden reason, though I was pissed about it either way!(Posts during this time: Drum Roll Please! Pinch Me)
  4. In June, 4 weeks into having no job (and unemployment still pending) my home was instantly flooded when the sprinkler in my daughter’s room went off. This meant that the kids and I did not have a place to stay for the foreseeable future. And as you can imagine being unemployed with no income coming in there was no way I could afford to live in a hotel until or if our home was to be repaired. Again I was devastated, but had a great friend help remind me to keep the faith and practice what I preach and that everything does happen for a reason. So I chose to trust and believe over the alternative. (posts from this time: Show Up, Living in a Hotel, Don’t Count Me Out,)
  5. The American Red Cross was the only thing/person that showed up for us throughout this whole ordeal. They came within minutes of being called, to a flooded house, a dozen fire fighters and one sobbing hot-mess mama. They gave me a hug and said “what do you need?” I am forever indebted to them for providing us a hotel for the 3 weeks it took for the house to be fixed, funds for food and clothes since we were instantly out of the house…they were God’s angles.(posts: Have Faith)
  6. In July I was fortunate enough to get back to work in software Business Development at a great job with great people and begin getting back on my feet.
  7. In August I get the call from The Red Cross to speak….
American Red Cross

I look back over the year’s events and know that every single event, like dominoes HAD to happen to get me to my ultimate dream. And trust me when the bad stuff was happening it felt like dominoes, like the world was crashing down again in an instant! But through it all I had total faith (even on the hard days) that somehow, and I had NO clue how, that this was all part of the bigger plan. I call these Earthquake Moments. When the whole world needs to be turned upside down to get to your ultimate Ultimate Dream. I couldn’t have kept those big jobs and still had this dream, the two things conflicted. So the Universe had to rely on what my Ultimate Dream was and moved a lot of crap around (that admittedly I wasn’t stoked on at first) to get me where I needed to be. This is a good spot to remind everyone, be careful what you wish for! Make sure it really IS your wish. Because YOU WILL GET IT, there may be some upheaval and it may take a while but it’s comin. Luckily I have been dead set on this wish/vision/goal above all others for years upon years, so whatever it takes to make this happen I will work with it!

But I’m so grateful I was able to keep the faith. Honestly, if it hadn’t been for all of your encouragement it would have been so much harder. But I just KNEW like I know, like I know! That it was all for a purpose, even if I couldn’t see what that was I trusted it.

So HOW FITTING is it that my first major speech discussions are with The Red Cross. An organization I never thought I would need, as a result of a situation I never thought I’d find myself in, which made my story that much more worth telling. Everything really does happen in our lives for a reason, a purpose, and if you can trust that you will live in freedom from the burden of stress!

So although I won’t know for certain if I’m confirmed or not for another week or so; I know that no matter what this was what was supposed to happen to take my dream to the next level. I have also in the last 2 weeks been approached by 3 other organizations/conferences for speeches this fall.

 
Dreams come true.
Keep the faith.
Never give up hope.
Never doubt what you KNOW to be true.
Hold on when it gets rocky cuz it will pass. Promise.
And work your ass off to reach your dreams in the meantime.
I will definitely let you know when that final step in this dream takes place. I have envisioned that day basically my whole life. I daily envision this particular speech as I begin to get together talking points, I get chills every time I do almost to the point of tears. It will be an emotional one for so many reasons, but I know I will 1. Drink in the Pinch me Moment and 2. Kill it!
 

 
 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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Big Picture -Definition

My Law of Attraction Definition of Big Picture:
Throughout my blog you will hear me refer to focusing on The Big Picture or Your Big Picture dream. This is one of the core concepts in my version of The Law of Attraction, and one of the most important ones to really get your head around to start seeing results.
In other words when you have a dream or a vision that you want to manifest in your life you need to focus on the end result, and not the specifics or the short term.

Example: If your dream is to get married and have children, but the relationship that your in is an unhealthy one or one where your mate doesn’t want to get married or have children, then this would be focusing on the short term and the specifics (your desire for THAT relationship to be the manifestation of your dream). But that’s NOT how The Law of Attraction works. It gets your Big Picture wish (to be married and have kids) and then it goes to work making that dream a reality. And here is the part you need to come to terms with if you really want this to work for you…you have to be ok with this. You need to understand this concept and accept it. That might very well mean the end to the relationship your in, but you gotta keep the faith and know that your end result and wish is in the process of coming true, so hold tight.
This holds true for all of your wishes…open your mind and results will follow.

 

 


Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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Easy Steps to a Successful Future Board

My Personal Future Board

Future Board:

This is a literal board (mine is a cork board about 3 feet by 2 feet that I picked up at an office supply store) with pictures of the life you want.

Step 1: Dream.
The key is to take the time to sit down and first write out on paper the dreams for your life. ALL of them, even the big ones you have never told anyone and have been too afraid to dream. Really take the time to imagine your life with no boundaries, or limits (this is very difficult at first and goes against our “rational mind” but it’s the most important step to success). Resist at all costs the urge to be “realistic”. Avoid that idea like an infectious disease.
A great way to do this is to create a bucket list. 

Step 2: Visualize. 
Pretend that it’s 5 years from now, you have been given a blank check, and you’re going about a “normal” day in your new life. What does that look like? Envision each category of your life, health, family, finances, dreams, leisure ect. What does an average day in your ideal life look like? What does it feel like? What are you doing? Who are you doing it with? What does your job look like (position, income ect)?  What are you doing on vacation?

Now does imagining that make you happy? Do you get a little gitty, like you did when you were five and imagined what Santa was going to bring you for Christmas?  If so,  you’re ready to make your board!

Step 3: Get to work! 
It’s not enough to just do step one and two. You need to make the actual physical board full of images of your ideal life.So go find images of what that life and those experiences FEEL like.  Google images will allow you to search on the phrase so you can get exactly the image you want to remind you of that mini movie you just created in your head.  Another great place to find beautiful and inspired images is Pinterest. You can search on anything and pick from hundreds of amazing pictures until you find the one that best represents that experience you want to live out one day.Go get a cork board, print the pictures, and make that board a visual representation of your future. And display it with pride where you can look at it every single day.
Sarah Centrella's first #FutureBoard
My first future board with NYC/Vegas

My personal example: One of the biggest pictures on my first board was a picture of Times Square in NYC.  Before I put it up I imagined how it would sound, what it smelt like, how small I would feel standing in the middle of all that magic, looking up at those huge jumbo screen’s. I got chills imagining it. Then every time I looked at the picture I played that little movie and smiled. 

So when the moment of my manifestation came, and I was standing in the middle of Time Square, I closed my eyes and replayed that movie.   I smiled the biggest smile, and drank in my Pinch Me Moment.

Step 4: Believe
Remember that those images are not tied to a “how”.  Meaning, now that you have an amazing board filled with your dream life, that now it’s your job to go figure out “how” to make it happen.  IT’S NOT.  The “how” is irrelevant.  Hence the reason it’s so important to get away from what’s realistic.Those images are also not the literal thing your looking to manifest.  They very well might come into your life exactly as shown on your board, but don’t get caught in the trap that it’s those THINGS you’re waiting for.  Remember we set out to find a visual representation of the life we want to live.  So you’re manifestation might be the exact experience you were wanting but come from a different source or in a different package.  So be aware of every blessing, so you wont miss the signs that are there to remind you that your life is changing.
 
My personal example:
On my vision board is a picture of girlfriends sitting front row at a fashion show. I put the picture up to remind me that I really wanted and needed good girlfriends in my life and wanted to focus on those relationships and doing fun things with them.  A few months later I found myself with a new girlfriend who literally came out of the clear blue sky, and we were siting court-side at an NBA game.  It wasn’t until the next day, when I put those pieces together, that I’d just lived out my manifestation. The exact thing I had wished for had come true.  But had I been totally focused on the image of girls at a fashion show I’d still be walking around saying this vision board stuff is crap and nothing good ever happens to me… get it? Powerful, yeah?  Read the story and see the pics here.
 
Remember that there is NO limit to what you can dream. This board represents everything you want out of life. It’s your goals it’s your dreams, so don’t unintentionally squash them.

Sarah's #FutureBoard
My office future board.. I look at it all day long 🙂
 
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Watch this video to see what I’ve manifested in the last 4 years: 

 

 

 

 

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The Law of Attraction: vs The HBR Method

Kim Kardashian

So I’ve realized lately that my definition of the Law of Attraction or at least my view of it, is somewhat different than the others you will find larking on the web. If you Google the phrase you will get a ton of sites claiming to give you instant wealth and riches and stating that your dreams will come true in a few days with their “simple formula” and purchase of their amazing e-book or online program. I have a difficult time with these.

However there are some thought leaders who I believe are amazing and have helped shape my views and ideas around this topic.  One is Louise Hay the “mother of positive thinking” as Oprah calls her. Her book You can Heal your life is an amazing read for anyone trying to get their mind in the right space and realize the power they have over their life. Another book that impacted me is A New Earth by Ekhart Tolle who helps you realize and become aware of being present in the moment and removing labels form your life, allowing you to find a deeper purpose and meaning.
But there are many others out there that I think try to take advantage of people who genuinely want to better their lives. They promise easy wealth, and this I find the most annoying claim of all.  Now my theory has it’s haters, trust me.  But most of them are people who came to The Secret or the Law of Attraction to get rich quick and they don’t want to hear that it might actually take some work as well.  I hope that works for them, honestly I do.  But for me it’s so much deeper then all that surface stuff.  It’s about changing the PERSON you ARE. About changing your belief system, and your mindset and consequently your entire life.
That’s pretty powerful.
What is money? You’re probably LOL-ing right now.  But seriously what is it? One of my favorite questions to ask people who seek my advice, and who say their goal is to make a lot of money or a specific dollar figure is; WHY? Why is it important to you? And 9/10 times I get; “Because I will get what I want. I want that amount of money”. ….Peeeooopple!!…money is just PAPER!! It’s what it enables you to do that matters!
So what? You got money! Are you happy? Is your family better off? Do they love you more? Do you feel less alone? And to the bigger question; what did it bring you? If you can’t answer these questions in specific detail, than thank God it “hasn’t worked for you“.  Just sayin’.  You need to be able to get away from money as being the only measure of success, and focus on what it enables you to experience in life.

If you get what I’m saying then we are on the right path.  Let’s say you have a million dollars fall into your lap, and to be real I hope that happens to me, but…it hasn’t yet.  If you have never planned for this, and have no goals/visions of how you will manage this money, and become a Lottery Winning Statistic. They will run a show about your life on E! True Hollywood Story of how having all that money destroyed everything you cared about. That’s what happens when all you asked for is money. You go out and blow it on nothing, people come into your life just to try and take it from you, and in a minute it’s all gone. Your friends are gone, your family hates you, and people wish this on themselves???

Money creates more problems then it solves

That is why I’ve started calling it Hustle.Believe.Receive. or the #HBRMethod  Because I don’t believe in the way the traditional Law of Attraction is taught.  It creates false scene of hope with no plan of action or direction, and people (rightfully so) get discouraged and quit believing in it (if they ever really did in the first place).  They go into it thinking all they need to do is think about money and money will show up. (Note: if something sounds too good to be true, it probably is!).

I started this journey choosing to believe that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, AND MONEY IS IRRELEVANT.   I never had money growing up, so money only represented “lack” to me. I’d never know it to produce a surplus or be easy to come by, so day-dreaming about money, made absolutely no sense to me.  I had however always had a vivid imagination about all the things I wanted to do and experience in my life, so that is where I started. I realized that money is OUR limitation that WE impose on our dreams, and I wanted to remove it completely from the equation.  I refused to dwell on it, since all I’d ever known were negative associations.  Instead I began focusing on the experiences, and the quality of life I wanted to create, and began moving positively in that direction.  And that’s when I noticed a dramatic shift in my life, those EXPERIENCES began to fall into my lap, and money was never even part of the equation. (Click the topic label “Manifest That” on the right side of my blog to read a ton of examples of unbelievable experiences I’ve manifested without money).

I know that this concept goes against everything you have been taught about success and money. I get that. We are taught from a young age that you must be “rich” to be successful.  But most people who are extremely wealthy were not born with that wealth. They created it, by applying the same exact simple tools I teach on this blog.  That means they started without it (just like us), but they did not let their circumstances prevent them from creating the life they envisioned.  What is their key to success? They all posses; desire, a dream, the tenacity to never give up, a work ethic unlike anyone around them, and unwavering belief that they would realize their dream.
Did a huge weight fall off your shoulders just now learning this? Because that’s how you should feel. How stressful is it to put up a Future Board and then try to think of how you can get enough money to make all that happen? That is called doubt and fear. It’s not your job to worry about how all the pieces will come together, it’s your job the BELIEVE that it is possible for you, and work like it’s coming any day.
I love hip-hop music because to me it’s a real life example of this happening right before our eyes. Maybe that’s also why I love working with athletes. Both of these groups, along with most successful people, understand these principles.  It’s something that has been innate within them since the moment they first recognized they had a dream. They may not even realize it, but their life is living proof that this theory really does work.
Think about it….
Tim Tebow
 Take an athlete for example. When they are a small child they find love and passion in their sport. Then they find a professional athlete to admire. They see that life, they watch them play on TV and they say; “That will be me one day”.  Notice they DON’T say, “I want to do that, or man I wish that was me”, they affirm that it WILL BE them one day.  They don’t stress about it they just know.

Then they hit the gym, they practice, they perfect their craft, they eat right, they take care of their bodies, and study the plays (their Hustle).  All the while in every moment of every day, they are playing the movie in their head of what it will be like to be that athlete living that dream (Visualization).  I call this the relentless pursuit (a phrase, admittedly I am taking from an athlete I’ve worked with who has it tattooed on his arms).  Most athletes I work with NEVER doubted for a moment that they would reach their dream.  It’s a given in their mind (unwavering Belief)

Let me say that again…..Most of these athletes BELIEVED with EVERY fiber of their being that if they worked hard, their dream would come true. They didn’t know exactly when or how it would happen, but they knew if they put in the work, do everything in their power at each stage in the process that it would manifest.  Period, end of story. That’s what you call unwavering faith.  It’s truly amazing and inspiring to think about. They have envisioned it in detail and obsessed over it to the point where it’s as natural as breathing. They anticipate the reality and excitement of living their dream.  Then the day comes. Their dream is realized. They ARE that athlete living that big life with all the components they imagined one day experiencing (fast cars, the big game, fame, beautiful homes, travel etc). Click here to read personal stories of athletes I’ve worked with, that proves this point.What I find so interesting is that the higher you get up that food-chain, the more successful you become, the more money stops being a factor all together.  Someone PAYS THEM to wear shoes (example: NIKE endorsements) they no longer need to go to the mall to buy them. They are GIVEN keys to the most expensive cars on the planet, no down payment required. Many get to a point where they don’t even pay for anything anymore. Drinks, dinners, cars, clothes it’s all given to them. It all just shows up, it’s attracted to them, they expect it, and they receive it.  But they put in the hard work in the beginning to get them to the stage where they are on the receiving end of all that work.
And ladies, if I just lost you with the sports references, what about Kim Kardashian? I know you’ve seen the episodes of Keeping Up With The Kardashian’s where a UPS truck rolls up with boxes of Vira Wang dresses, for her to simply have her pick of any dress she wants, and she gets PAID to ware it!!  If there was ever a perfect example of proof this works, this is it.The same can be true for you.  It’s been true for me, I’ve proven it in my own life.  You put in the work on a daily basis, and the success begins to follow.  And the dreams you have, the visions you’ve made for your life begin to manifest.
        
Hustle.Believe.Receive. KEY’S TO SUCCESS:
This is my core principles for success, that I’ve applied in my own life to achieve amazing results in a very short time. They are simple ,and easy to apply, and with them you can recreate your life. You can literately create a whole new Life Plan.
  • Believe with Unwavering Faith
  • Work hard. Hustle don’t just sit on your ass and expect that if you think pretty/happy thoughts all this will fall in your lap. Get up and move in the direction of your dream!
  • Expect the outcome. There is a great quote from the song My Last with Big Sean and Chris Brown that says; “I’m just doing better then what everybody projected, I KNEW that I’d be here, so if you ask me how I feel, I’ma just tell you it’s everything that I EXPECTED”. I love this.
  • Use Affirmations and Mantra’s to keep you focused and remove the negative thoughts in your head.
  • Visualization is critical.  Create a movie in your head that plays out your Life Plan and Future Board in beautiful details.  Let it inspire you and make you happy. The art of daydreaming.
  • Gratitude is king. Gratitude is the key to success, and the very first step in the process. “In all things be grateful.” You knew your manifestation would come. You prepared for this moment for a long time. Sit back and enjoy every single second of your “Pinch me Moment”.
  • Control your thoughts. Remember whatever you think about, good or bad is what your future will bring. If you think about how broke you are, you will ALWAYS be broke. If you think about how blessed and grateful for what you have in this moment, you will get more to be thankful for. It’s that simple.
That’s it. It’s common sense really. It’s not as complex as everyone makes it out to be. I’m not saying it’s a piece of cake or human nature at first, it does take work, but it’s not long after you start this journey that it does become part of who you are.
Be patient and never give up, results will follow.

 


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My Pledge

This blog started out, and has always been about my personal journey. It began as an anonymous outlet for my feelings, the good, bad and ugly. It’s role in my life was the one place I could come to say what I was really feeling and thinking. There was comfort in the fact that I could hide behind no one knowing it was ME who was going through all this. That is not the case anymore (obviously 🙂 ) and though I’m blessed, humbled and honored to be out in the open and have it still accepted, it does threaten to change the dynamic a bit.
Last night as I sat in the motel parking lot, I thought all I want to do is go home and write, so I can sleep. But the fear that now being that raw and open with bad days might get a negative response came into my mind. I thought long and hard about that, and what I know is this:

  • I must write to keep my sanity.
  • It must always be 100% authentically me. My feelings thoughts and emotions in THAT moment. It might be good, bad, depressed, or ecstatic. But it’s going to ALWAYS remain ME.
  • I will not edit/sensor my emotions/writing based on how it may or may not be received. For good or bad, this will always be a place where I can pour my heart out, to get what I’m going through off my chest.
  • I’m NOT a professional.
  • I’m not someone who has all the answers.
  • I’m not trying to convince anyone of anything.
  • I’m just a mom, documenting my struggles, wins and journey, and that’s what this will always be.
  • Along the way it’s my prayer that it continues to mean something to you, my loved readers. I will share all I know, but it’s just that; what I know.

I love you all for supporting me, and sharing your thoughts with me. This is my pledge to you….much more of the SAME to come 🙂

P.S. This is probably pointing out the OBVIOUS but I’m famous for being the worlds WORST speller/editor/grammar girl. Soooo sorry, but it is what it is! If you subscribe to a feed then you get the worst version 🙁 I post THEN edit. Sorry 🙁

 

~Written by: Sarah Centrella for Thoughts.Stories.Life
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One of Those Days

I’m not perfect by a MILLION miles. I’m flawed to the core. Like, no joke! But I mean well. I have a good heart and I try harder than anyone I know has tried for me. I fight hard. But it doesn’t mean that every day is a perfect day.

Tonight I looked around the table and I saw happiness and love. I saw mates and matches. I saw two people who look both figuratively and literally like they have been cut from the same cloth. I think to myself what a beautiful thing that is. I think of the stories I could tell when I had my “cut from the same cloth half”. But those stories are not relevant anymore, or even comical. They are irrelevant. I sit solo.

engagement dinner

I feel naked without my kidos round me they shelter me from these awkward moments.  I realize that I fall apart when they are not with me. Caring for someone else is what I know it’s what is natural and normal for me, and when that’s gone I’m naked (and not in a good way!).

I leave the party with hugs, love and smiles. Get into my car, crank Adele and cry. Idk why. Really, I don’t (other than I’m PMS-ing). But the tears fall in my lap as I drive. I think of all the love and good will I try to put out there, why does the night end with him there and me here? Me sitting at a table with everyone cut from linen, while I’m cut from wool? When can I be linen too?

I drive home. At my exit I take a left and not a right. I make another left and park my car. I turn up Adele. I look at the parking lot full of cars, and I think the same thing I thought a month ago; “You fair weather friends. It’s Saturday night, where were you on Tuesday when my car was the only one here???” But I turn off the engine and close my eyes. Tears run down my cheeks. I look up through puffy eyelids and see the motel room where I stayed with my three babies, for three weeks when we didn’t have a home. I breathe, compose myself. Breathe some more. Realize that though I didn’t mean to end up here, here is always where I should be on nights like this.

Nights when loneliness seems like it rapes around your soul. Here is where I should come to remind myself that nothing is as bad as living in this place. I will be okay. I am okay. Good times and bad. I will be fine. Someone said the bad days are placed in our lives to make us always remember who we are and where we came from. I can see that.

Tomorrow’s a new day.


 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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Letters From Readers: Self-esteem

*This is an email chain from a question received from Tammy.  It is used with her permission, in hopes it will resonate with you as well.
Sarah… I am from Jamaica, I happened to stumble across your blog and I’m reading it till 3 a.m. 🙂I was bullied in high school… It got extremely bad and since then I have become a shadow of what I used to be… I am 19 years old but so full of anger and hatred that it consumes me and I am turning into a horrible person. I used to believe in the law of attraction and I have manifested many academic achievements in my life, but I have found it so hard to use it for changing my mindset and trying t heal from all this bullying… I have so much of self-loathe and I can’t even look in the mirror without cringing… I thought once I had left school (out of the bullying environment) all my insecurities would vanish and I’d be able t start fresh…
However I find that all my actions are confined by the thought that ”People are just out to get me” and ”Hurt them before they hurt you”. I have so much to be grateful for. I have an amazing family network and I have many people in my life who really love me and don’t see all the negative things I see in myself. I am so mean to them because now I cannot confine my ‘anger’ anymore and I lash out at everyone. I am realizing that I am my worst enemy. When it comes to academics, I have used the law of attraction and the results were nothing less than amazing. That is why my circumstances at the moment have made me turn back to the secret. I needed inspiration on how to get started again and then I came across your blog 🙂

You made me believe once again and for that I thank you. I love how you included how God fits into The Secret because that is something I always struggled to understand. My biggest fear in life is that I will settle for less than I deserve all because I don’t believe I’m worth it… I will hopefully try and change for the better 🙂Thank you once again
God Bless.
Hi Tammy,
Thanks so much for being patient, the past week or so has been crazy. I’m grateful that you came across my blog and I’m so honored that it meant something to you.
First let me say that I’m so sorry you had to go through that and that coming out of it has been such a painful and difficult experience for you and your family. I can certainly see how that experience can make you bitter and angry, and feel like you have low self-worth. I believe your question is how you can try to put this behind you, and stop taking the negative feelings, anger and guilt with you….

Here are my thoughts…

First people do not define you. YOU define you. There is NOTHING that anyone can say good or bad about you that defines the person you are. You create the person you want to be every single day. What others think of you or say about you is their jealousy and insecurity and cruelty PROJECTED on to you, but it’s NOT who you are. People saying these things about you doesn’t make it true. To me that is the first thing you REALLY need to understand, you need to know that those are all just words that other people from a place of negative evilness tried to associate with you, but they are NOT you.

You ARE beautiful and the ONLY way you will ever feel beautiful and begin to change that negative voice and turn it into a positive one where you believe that you’re actually beautiful is if you start saying it to yourself, all the time. All of those mean evil things they said to and about you that in your heart you KNOW are not true, you need to make new mantras for those that are the opposite of all the negative-ness. So if they said you are too skinny, say to yourself that you’re a healthy beautiful weight, say to yourself how glad you are that you can wear certain clothes and that your healthy. If they said that your ugly, look in the mirrors and look at your own eyes in the reflection and tell yourself 20 times every morning and 20 times every night before bed that you are beautiful. Have someone who is good at photography take some great photos of you, ones that you like of yourself. Try to see yourself in the eyes of your family and the people who love you. Put the pictures on Facebook so you can hear the positive feedback and let it soak in.

It will take a long time to change those negative feelings about yourself but you can do it, I promise. Remember that what you focus on expands. That means that whatever you think about, you get more of. So if you are thinking all day how ugly you are and how angry you are about it, the more ugly you will feel and them more angry you will become, it’s 100% guaranteed. So you need to flip that.

It will be a baby step process to start off with but, you can do it. Every time you get a bad thought replace it right away in your head with the good one. Practice telling yourself that you’re beautiful and smiling and see how much better you feel after a few days. Smiling will do so much good for you right now, because it’s the opposite of how you want to feel (aka angry).  But when you smile it’s impossible for people to dislike you, you’ll notice that strangers will be nicer to you, and you will feel more beautiful and get a better feeling from the people around you.

And lastly, please try not to feel guilty about this. Bullies should be punished and they can destroy people’s lives forever. You are very smart to have alerted the people around you to help get it stooped, I’m so proud of you for that. And you’re so smart to reach out for help to get through the feelings now. All of those things mean that you are very strong and you will get through this and be stronger for it.

Remember every time that you are angry or feeling ugly that those asshole bullies just WON. Picture their faces…do you want them to win? Do you want what they said about you to be your reality? Don’t let that happen, fight it every time, and soon you won’t have to fight it anymore, one day you will FEEL beautiful all the time, and you will be happy. But it’s not over night it takes work.

Good luck hun you can do it!

-Sarah

 

Tammy’s Reply:

Hi Sarah,

Yes thank you so much for your advice. I have actually started telling myself I’m beautiful. I tried that experiment today and although I didn’t believe it I was surprised that I got compliments. I have also started making my vision board. I will send you pictures once I am happy with it. Thank you for all your help. I am excited to start changing my life and I will let you know how LOA is working for me 🙂

I have also gotten rid of people who continuously insult my looks and those that continually remind me of my past and how I was bullied. That is why I got rid of fb… It was very scary at first but I am surprised to find that even though I have fewer friends now, I am SO much happier. I know they are still insulting me behind my back… but suddenly I just don’t care 🙂

At University, I have gathered a small group of friends who I urged to read your blog. We now share stories of how LOA works for us and try to improve our grades by using it. We are also working on our vision boards together and encouraging lecturers to incorporate it into teaching.

 


 

 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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